well, it's been raining.

* I was supposed to introduce my love for cinematography to all of you this December , it was supposed to be a surprise. I guess I really can't contain myself. This is a really short montage that I made, so you could feel the "cooped up" feeling I've been having lately. This isn't my first montage. This is only the first that I've actually prioritized, posted and shared!  *



it's tiresome, how the rain relentlessly knocks on my door, tempting and expecting me - me, with a good book, a gratifying cup of hot chocolate and the warm, fuzzy feeling of comfort - to answer it and play with it for a bit, just how i used to years ago.


p.s, would you guys still like my blog if i started posting more vids?

the first step to being beautiful

I wanted to take self portraits for my blog. That was the first thing on my mind when I woke up one morning.  As usual, I washed up, ate breakfast, got my camera and put on something nice. I took about fifty random photos without looking at them, wanting to be surprised. I ended my 'self photo shoot' early enough for lunch, and decided that afterwards I'd start deleting those awkward looking photos of myself.

Oh. my. dear. Ew, terrible, disgusting, gross. Those were the only words that came out of my mouth when I looked over my photos. My hands were rapidly going on with the trash button of my camera. Before I knew it, every single photo I took was deleted by myself. Crushed, I asked myself why I wasn't able to find a single, nice photo of myself. And then I started to become jealous. "Wouldn't it be so much nicer to be those girls in the movies that look perfect with and without makeup, to look so pretty and so attractive no matter what they do to themselves? To own every single photo taken - to just have a whole album or scrapbook of their self portraits..."

The same day, I was frisking Tumblr, satisfying my addiction of The Amazing Spiderman, and I found this amazing, inspiring and lovely quote:

“I can’t think of any better representation of beauty than someone who is unafraid to be herself.”

-Emma Stone

This was so, so, so encouraging. {AND I LOVE EMMA STONE}  But really - it's true. Why should I be ashamed of how I look? Why want to be or look like someone else? Everyone is beautiful - no man can craft anything like us. The first step to being beautiful is believing that you are :)

Have a great week! x

medicines and mordor and cupcakes, oh my!

School starts in less than a week, so I've been trying to make the most of my last few days of summer with my friends....and I think you can clearly say that I haven't been making the most of this spare time to blog....blame me, blame me, I know it! I am an odd person. Notice how I had more blog posts during my school days? Kinda funny. 

ANYWAY. I've been trying to make the most of what's left of my summer, but this weekend I couldn't   because I was....SICK. And it wasn't the ordinary kind of sick - like when you get a fever, stay home, have some medicines and feel better in the morning. I was sick for 5 days straight, stuck in Mordor all alone (Just kidding! it was actually just the isolation that killed me..and my terrible headaches).

1. I reached 40 degrees at one point. (The death doors have opened.)
2. I couldn't walk. (Getting my laptop from my desk was a chore!)
3. I couldn't taste (worst part...they prepared my favorite food for dinner!). 
4. I was so exhausted. 
5. The medicines varied. (one little, two little three little tablets, four little, five little, six little tablets...)
6. My tummy was a zoo (wasn't just a fever...sigh) 

I was recovering during my brother's birthday sleepover, and my cousins made cupcakes for him...and everyone else. So yes, due to the consideration of the effects of eating dairy with a recovering bum stomach - I had to die while watching my cousins munch into these lovelies. (Did I mention that they baked cookies too? Cinnamon. My ultimate favorite. Awesome.)

Whatever the case, I am better now! Just one more day of rest and I'll be up and about! 

Much much much much much much love, stellaloooo x

P.s: I have queued up many posts because I feel so bad about not posting so much over the past few days - and I will have a blogging break this August so heads up for those of you who might want to guest post! The sponsor buttons will also go up by then :)