this time,

to those who waited,
and reloaded their browsers on my page
several,
s e v e r a l
times,
to those who stuck by,
to those who emailed,
to those reading
and re reading
and re reading again,
to those who have stayed
and to ones who have come;
again,
welcome.

i've been gone for a while and i know that isn't healthy for me. but now that i am back, i have planned an awful amount of great things for this blog and for what's going to become of it.
i've even planned up a whole to-do list from an 8 hour plane ride.
yes, friends, i've come from a long trip to london and the middle east,
and i've never been so glad to be sitting on this chair
in my room
at this time of the night.

i've got a whole bag of photos, lame jokes and pretty things.
i've asked a few creative minds to help revamp this blog into something that might make you smile.

i should stop, i wouldn't want to spoil it all.

i'm excited.
you should be, too.

cheers to what's ahead.

smiles

I've had better months and better days. I wish that I could find the right words to say what I think or feel. Right now, I am at the point of pressure; where everything is on me, and I will have to take responsibility. And sometimes the incentive is what keeps me from taking that bigger step. Sometimes, I am distracted and my priorities are messed up.

And with that, honestly, I, myself, am seeing changes in the person that I am and I don't necessarily like them. But you know what's stricken me? It's that no matter what I've done, God seems to never run out of love - at all - and He's the only being that I know of that can do that. To love unconditionally.

Hm, why can't people be more like that? Why can't I be like that?

A friend asked me one time: If you were a color, what color would you be and why? 

It was only almost reflex to blurt out my favorite color (which is undoubtedly green) and not give any other reason, but that night I thought about it and decided to go much deeper than what I initially put out for. Because If I were a color, I'd be blue since it can both portray happiness and sadness. And even so, my friends will see me and love me for me; flawed and imperfect.

// 

Something to make you smile:

I see a bit of light 

From the edge of this cave

This drenched

Moist

And damp cave.

(Also known as school)

(And exams)

I see colors

And smiles

And I can smell

A tinge of salt.

Yes, 

It's summer.

adventure

I know it's been awhile since I've posted and I'm not going to write another paragraph on apologizing (like almost always) when I do it again anyway. The past month has been awfully busy for me, catching up with school and everything. But nevertheless, I've been thinking about this idea for a while now, and I thought it'd be good to leave it on here.

I will be deleting this blog.

Haha kidding, April Fools!

I miss typing on here. 

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I was chatting with an old friend over in Facebook the other day and he told me about his disappointment - how he and his family did not have any plans on travelling over the summer. For a while, I shared the disappointment with him. I mean, who doesn't love the taste of adventure, the anticipation for the unknown, or the wondrous delight of getting lost in a culture that you've never experienced before?

That's the word for it. Adventure.

He was disappointed because his summer had no more room for any adventure.

I sat and thought hard. Really hard. 

And then I realized he was wrong.

Because often,

the greatest of adventures 

are the smallest ones.

The ones we expect the least.

I told him he had to reason to be disappointed.

Travelling is too expensive, he said.

Travelling isn't as easy as it sounds, he said.

Although what he said could be true at some point,

 I think that the easiest way to travel

 - or to have an adventure; to find something unusually exciting -

is to travel out of our comfort zones,

and try something new.